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My Own Worst Enemy

<<This is a bit of a personal rant but perhaps some of you may be able to relate>>

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I am my own worst enemy.

If I  treated others like I treat myself…..I would be so ashamed.

I know this, yet I keep doing it.

I continue the negative self talk. I continue to not make myself a priority. And I continue to not take care of myself.


It’s a mental game I struggle with.

I try to chase that “life balance” but I am a workaholic and I love it. It is hard for me to slow down and take the time to do what I need to do for myself.


But it needs to stop because I hate myself for it. I despise myself. And I am so mad at myself.

I need to start loving myself and giving a shit about ME!


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This is definitely one of, if not the biggest flaw I have. I am going to start working on doing better starting with making promises to myself and following through.

There is nothing worse than saying you are going to do something (for yourself) and then not doing it. We all know what that feels like when someone else does it to us…..why should we do it to ourselves. Over and over again.

I am going to eat healthy starting today (and then you don’t do it).

I am going to work out 4 days a week (and then you don’t do it).

I am going to go to bed at a decent time and get a good sleep (and then you don’t do it).

We keep letting ourselves down and that has to stop.

Of course we have to give ourselves some grace. Life can be crazy. But when it keeps happening and the self talk just keeps getting worse and worse you have to draw the line. It’s not good for you.

Sorry about the rant….I hope someone was able to relate to this and perhaps be inspired to take the step to start loving themselves more. And if you are already awesome at this I would love to know what your strategies are to make time for yourself and make yourself a top priority. Because we are all busy and we all have the same 24 hours in a day and I know it can be done!



Feeling Shitty

I had big plans to catch up on some work today but my body had other ideas. I woke up with a throbbing headache, my stomach was unsettled, and I felt like I was burning up.

So I rested instead.


It was super hard to just give myself permission to do nothing. Sometimes it is just a necessity.


Now I am even further behind but I am feeling a bit better.

We often take our health for granted and that’s a bad idea. I know better but it is still a struggle. It is just so easy to put ourselves last. To keep putting off self care. “I’ll start eating healthy next week” or “I’ll go to bed early tomorrow night”. I could go on and on but we all know how it goes.

It is days like today that remind me that I should be a priority. That my well being should be a priority.


But it isn’t that easy to just flip that switch. It takes hard work and a proper mindset. Especially when it comes to eating healthy and exercising.

I am definitely not going to sit here and say that tomorrow I am going to start doing those things.

I want to make some changes. I have recently made some changes but struggle to stick with it so I am not going to make any claims or announce anything I can’t follow up on.

The struggle is real and I know many can relate.

However I need to keep reminding myself…..

It would be awfully hard to achieve my goals and live my dreams if I am worn out, tired, and sick.

And not just on days like today when I am feeling shitty.

Everyday I need to remember that.

Anyhow……I did manage to get outside for a bit today and enjoy the beautiful spring weather. Thanks to my hubby for dragging me outside!

I snapped a few pics of some of the cattle we have for sale on our farm.Triple Play 18E.jpg

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Aren’t these girls so pretty? Haha. Definitely a switch up from all the clothes I have been photographing and posting lately!

It was good to catch some fresh air and feel the warmth from the sun (finally).

Since all I did today was look at my cows and lay on the couch there isn’t much more I can share.

Just remember, it’s okay to listen to your body and give yourself permission to have a rest day if you need it.

Guilt free!